To My Newborn Baby, With Love From Mama

To My Newborn Baby, With Love From Mama!

Dearest Baby Girl,

It took nine months for you to grow and become strong enough to come into this world.

If I’m being honest, those nine months were not pleasant ones.

I loved feeling you kick and move about, but many days were spent either at the toilet vomiting, lying on my couch or bed, so fatigued I felt I couldn’t even move, and being poked for blood work and progesterone shots multiple times.

Sleeping during the last month of pregnancy

All the while, your five older brothers and sisters were running around needing the attention and care of mama.

I was torn as to who to give attention to, but ultimately knew they would survive this time. Your life was feeble and depended on mama giving you as much care as I possibly could. That meant rest, taking the progesterone, and attempting to eat even when I knew I wasn’t going to be able to keep it down.

When you were born I was so exhausted I couldn’t even hold you. I didn’t cry with emotion – no laughs of joy were heard. Instead, I was physically spent and in an incredible amount of pain – more pain than I’ve ever been in before.

Giving birth can be a joyful thing, but also a very painful thing!

It was like I bottled up the nine months of work it took to get you here and put it into labor.

A week later, I gaze at your face and wonder what we would do without you. The pain of labor is still there, the need for lots of rest still persists, but slowly the agony of the nine months is fading away as I fall in love with you.

Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning. Psalm 30:5

You were born in the wee hours of the morning. It was pitch dark, and I was beginning to despair of you ever being born at home. And then suddenly, the Lord granted the prayers of my heart and you came.

Newborn Baby Girl Sleeping Peacefully

It reminds me of trials in life. We despair of ever being rid of them, and then the Lord gives us sweet relief. Even if those trials do not end, there are moments of rest, and sometimes of complete deliverance. It is far from easy, but he gives us the strength to endure.

What can take the place of your baby hiccups, your little grunts, your sweet yawns, and the frantic need you have for food and love that only mama can give right now. You were fashioned in a furnace of affliction, but you have come forward as a vessel of unspeakable worth.

I thank my God that you are here and that I was chosen to be your mother and whatever the future holds for you and I, be it joy or sorrow, I will always, ALWAYS love you.

Baby Sophia is here!!

We are so thrilled to be able to finally announce that Sophia Diane is here! She was born Friday morning at 5:45 AM.

Introducing Sophia Diane!

She was 10 lbs, 1 oz and 22″ long. Born 10 days after her due date, we were more than ready for her to arrive! Her birth was the hardest I have ever experienced, with lots of strange twists and turns to the story. I’m still processing it all, but am so thankful I was still able to have a home birth.

My midwife was amazing and helped me through and knew just what needed to be done to help her arrive.

I have never come close to having a 10 pound baby, so this was an all new experience for me, one I hope to not repeat. 😉

Caroline and Sophia

We are snuggling and resting a lot. So thankful for all the prayers from friends and family for her save arrival! She is so precious, and well worth all the nine months of hardship to get her here!

Waiting on Baby to Arrive

Whether it is your first or sixth baby, waiting on a baby to arrive can be rough!

It doesn’t matter whether it’s your first or sixth baby, the last days of waiting for a baby to come can be hard. The clock ticks by ever so slowly. Every night you go to bed thinking “this might be the night!” only to wake up and realize you have a new day to conquer again.

Since this is a pregnancy that was sustained through lots of prayer and progesterone I realize now I sort of expected the baby to come early. I should know by now never to have expectations when it comes to a baby making it’s arrival!

We wait. And we watch. I stop and try to feel the baby kick, but the kicks slow down at the end of pregnancy. Right when I might get worried, the baby gets hiccups (this baby has lots of those!) and I rejoice in the movement. I feel baby squirming, moving it’s head down low like it wants to come out.

I’ve felt that for weeks now though. 🙂

Last night we had a family movie night in our bedroom. All of us piled in our small room and watched an old classic movie together. One more evening down. One more memory made of waiting on baby as a family. The children frequently ask if the baby will come, as they feel the day is never going to come.

My boys want the baby to come so they can have a spring break from school. I just laugh and say that’s the last reason I want the baby to come!

I have special pile of books set aside from the library for my boys to read…after the baby comes. They look longingly at the pile, and I realize the due date to return those books is approaching. Oops.

So we wait together and try to keep life going, though it has slowed down.

I take a lot of naps these days.

Sleeping during the last month of pregnancy

By 11 AM I am worn out and can’t stay awake as I don’t sleep well (I’m writing this post at 4 AM!). I have learned the best way to get a nap in during this time of day is to make sure my older boys have schoolwork they can do on their own and sleep in the living room. If I go to my bed, chaos seems to erupt.

Playing legos to stay busy

The children play lots of legos. We spread a queen size sheet on the living room floor and they can build for hours.

In Freedom's Cause Story

We spent an afternoon listening to this brand new G.A.Henty story together, while the legos were being built and I sat on the couch working on school. If you need a new family audio story, this is an excellent one!

Working on school

I’m tearing apart the new reading cards needed for Book 2 of All About Reading while we listen to the story. My contacts don’t always get in these days, and my hair and makeup  barely happens. Somehow my husband still tells me I look beautiful, and I just laugh and say thank you. I have a pretty special husband. 🙂

Schoolbooks for the little girls

I homeschool the little girls from the couch, and try to stay on top of business work with my laptop.

Dishes piled up

The dishes get piled up. With a small kitchen it’s impossible to not have happen (that is literally about all the counter space I have). Our oldest does a great job of doing dishes, but somehow the dirty dishes always seem to win over the clean ones. 🙂

Through it all, we look forward to one thing. A new life coming. It makes all the messes and fatigue and loss of sleep worth it. This special time only comes once or twice for some families, and I am well aware that for some families it never arrives and their heart aches. I realize that I don’t know the future and this could be our last time, as I don’t know the plans God has for us.

My husband was telling me yesterday that I must have learned a lot of patience through this pregnancy.  I told him that instead of patience, I feel like I’ve had to grow in faith and relying on the Lord. I can only do so much to sustain this pregnancy, and ultimately I have to have faith in Him to help this baby grow, and to help me through labor.

I’m hoping baby snuggles happen soon, but until then…

We wait. And hope. And trust in God that He has the perfect birth day picked out!

Feminine Friday – Modest Maternity Version!

Maternity in Sea Mist - The Modest MomMaternity in Sea Mist 

Maternity SkirtMaternity Top – Cropped Layering Shell –  Sandals –  PurseEarringsBraceletScarfLilla Rose Bobby Pins (I love how secure these bobby pins are, they work so much better than normal bobby pins!)

I love basic maternity maxi skirts. They can be paired with so many different tops for different looks. I think every pregnant mama can relate to getting burnt out on wearing the same thing over and over again. Having some solid color skirts really helps bring variety to a simple maternity wardrobe!

Of course accessories really help a small wardrobe. Adding in scarves, headbands, earrings, etc. to a limited wardrobe can drastically change the look of the outfit!

Maternity in Purple - The Modest Mom

Maternity In Purple 

Maternity SkirtMaternity/Nursing TankTopScarfWedge ShoesEarringsHeadbandPurse

I love purple, even though I’ve gone in and out of liking the color. I think I wore myself out on the color after I used it for our wedding and for decorating our first home. I’ve found myself going back to wanting to wear purple this past year and   love the outfits I’ve put together!

Maternity in Coral - The Modest Mom

Maternity in Coral 

Maternity SkirtTopSandalsLilla Rose Flexi Owl ClipEarringsNecklace – Tote 

I have worn this maternity maxi skirt this whole pregnancy and love it! I wish more sizes were still available at Target.

I want to try braiding my hair and using that exact flexi clip! Super cute!

Modest Maternity outfits can be hard to put together, I hope this gives you some inspiration!

Cents of Style has a one day sale on their popular State Necklaces! If you love your state, this is a cute way to show that!

Cents of Style State NecklacesFriday only, you can get one of these necklaces for $11.95 plus free shipping with the code: HOME at the checkout!

Cents of Style State Necklace

Happy Friday!